Starting Over.
Hi all, I missed you.
I had to step away for a while - I had no idea it would be this long but life did not stop the train wreck just because it was a new year, and I was not expecting or ready for a sequel.
I'm sorry I didnt leave much to go on though, thats a big regret. I close off when I'm hurting badly, and the wall i threw up this time was a mile high. - I'm trying to change that about myself. If life ever f__s me this hard again (which would be quite an achievement), I'll make an effort to let you know if I need a break.
I'd tell you about what happened if I thought you'd believe me, I'd rather you take my word for it so I dont end up writing the most depressing post ever - but if you really need to find out what happened, head over to my discord for the 'Open talk with Icarus' channel, i'll cover it there.
After all the emotional trauma that happened I was just completely numb and limping on with the artwork even though I wasnt enjoying it, I needed to stop and recover for a few months and if i'd been able to admit that to myself I wouldnt have had such a spectacular self destruct.
Even after I broke down I tried to engage in social media for a while but there was a constant pressure from DM's, suggestions commission requests, ideas, emails and fans to come back before i was ready, and putting this first cost me too much.
TLDR; I needed a time out - but I tried to keep going out of sense of responsibility until I had a complete breakdown and couldn't function emotionally, I'm feeling better -
I hope youre ready for some artwork, I'm about ready to start over - no grand overabitious plans - just some baby steps. Step 1 is doing a little art in the studio every day. There will be a New workshop post tomorrow. See you soon.
:)