Ascension Update

  On the 21st, the day of the Solar Flash, my mother and I sat outside in the sun for over an hour together while I played frequencies from my playlist and repeated phrases full of peace and good intentions in my head. My mother said she visualized light forming all over our house, and then all over the world. I'd been so excited for this day no matter how it turned out, and I didn't mind contributing to peaceful vibes "just in case." 

  It wasn't much different to a normal day from an outside perspective, although it was a sunny and warm day for us. I didn't know what to expect, so I was just grateful for the calm day. Whether you believe in what's going on or not, I believe we all manifested it regardless. So many people were talking about this event and encouraging each other to pray, visualize, and meditate on a loving future for the whole world on a specific day that I believe it had a genuine effect, like a mass placebo effect. 

  And what's so wrong about a bunch of people praying for the world to get better? 

  My mother had also prepared blue glass bottles of water to sit in the sun. She called it Solstice Water, and once it was brought inside to cool we both drank a glass. She explained that it's meant to soak up the energy of the day and help cleanse you, in a nutshell. I believe this is a simple ritual that is used in multiple cultures, but primarily in India. We're made of mostly water, and as such dark energies out there do try to poison us through water, but when blessed it is nourishing and nurturing. 

  I highly recommend this scene from a film called 'What The Bleep Do We Know?' and if you haven't seen the whole thing, it is absolutely worth watching (on Gaia). My mom was the first person to show me this film, but I was much younger and had no idea what to do with this information. Considering that water literally changes structure based on emotions and energy around it, it isn't far fetched to theorize that we react similarly, which is why affirmations and positivity are so important right now. 

  I've been dragging through the rest of this year ever since. I've had vivid dreams, brain fog during the day, eye irritation, body aches, and some extreme emotions. Granted, it's about that time of the month anyway, but I feel incredibly drained and disoriented. I took a break from social media and creating for a few days, and when I tried to get back into it I had trouble focusing. I haven't wanted to eat much and I've had unexplained bouts of anxiety as well. It's a little more than what I'm used to. Afterall, this year has essentially changed me completely as a person and I'm still processing it all. 

   I feel like my body is going through something and I'm trying to be patient with myself. I sort of expected to be feeling amazing after the 21st, and instead I've been feeling awful and strange, like I'm going through something cleansing that I just have to go through. Oddly I couldn't sleep Christmas Eve, but the holiday itself was enjoyable despite my low energy. I've been sleeping more since then but waking up overheated, only to feel exhausted all day. I experience semi frequent ear ringing and it's been happening more than usual. 

  For so long I've felt out of place, like I want to go home but I don't know where that is. I'm safe where I am and I'm lucky to be so. I'm blessed to have so many people invested in my story who care about me. I'm grateful to have met someone who changed my life and wanted to face the future with me, no matter how difficult or scary it might be. 2021 presents new challenges, but I also sense opportunities coming my way. I think my instincts are tuning up and that sort of thing can make you feel a little crazy. 

  If you relate to any part of my story I'm happy to make you feel less alone. It's been so unexpected and overwhelming to have touched so many lives this year and it's almost unbelievable to look back on the extreme transformation I've made. I have this impending sense of something bigger coming, but I'm not sure if that's for myself or for the world. Clearly our way of life is dying. More and more people are waking up to the comfortable prison that the matrix is comprised of and it's thrilling to know I'm not alone either. 

  As we move forward into next year let's remember to be brave, be strong, and understand that every experience can make us stronger if we let it. There is a lesson to be learned in everything, even and most especially from the hard times. I don't see any coincidences in my life anymore, just things that have prepared me for this time. I was given a guided journal containing God based prompts and bible verses, which is not something I was ever interested in since walking away from Christianity, but I find it comforting now to see God in my own way. 

  I'd like to continue inspiring people by pointing out the hidden messages I see in our world as well as promoting peace and positivity. I'd like to write more, so I'm hoping for more support of this blog. I just want to do what I love and what I'm good at on a regular basis, but finding a balance has been tricky. My goal is to have even a fraction of my Twitter followers invested in this blog, and to gain more financial independence. I never did collect unemployment this year, I simply started a blog and a business and I'm figuring things out as I go along! 

  I wish everyone peace, happiness, and abundance next year. May we never accept less than we deserve again. 

Love, Jude