I drew three angles

I wanted to upload my artworks to this website because the only other place I posted them is Twitter, which is more of a news and communication platform than archival and blogging. Although as an extreme extreme introvert I don't like talking much, I feel that in todays era where technology of all different sorts constantly and rapidly enlarges the distance between the artist and the audience, I think it's all the more important for artists to talk about their work. In fact, I lament that the word "audience" is endangered because almost everyone is ok with being reduced into "consumers".

So the first one is actually a series of multiple artworks, a comic. I started this because I was depressed and decided to draw my own hype poster. And it worked and now I'm a proud "narcissist" who has their own artwork as their phone wallpaper. It's inspired by the iconic cutscene from Bloodborne (it appears I can't insert youtube links amidst a post on this website) boss Ludwig the Holy Blade. And I'm posting the storyboard and sketches not because it's something worthy of studying like some course but to show and more importantly archive humanity behind art. In fact, the shittier it is, the better. Because if it's too perfect then, as far as my own experience is concerned, it'll alienate beginners away by giving them this idea that you're either born a perfect gifted kid or go home.

The sketch of the heart is notably red colored unlike everything else. That is because obviously I don't know how an anatomically accurate heart looks like so I had to trace an image from stockphotos.

I'm unbelievably proud that I made this. The honeymoon period is still not over. It's awe inspiring and imposing. Also my imagination is probably enhancing it with placebo. It's interesting concept, now that I actually recognize it. I feel imposed because I know what it really is in a kind of "worldbuild-y" way that it's rather huge in size and the unfinished and inside-exposed nature is a bit macabre. And I wonder if no one else actually see it the same way as I do. Perhaps it looks straight up trash and I should see a psychosis doctor. I personally hope that people who see the previous panels will make the connection that the papers that make up her enormous wings are to-do lists, but maybe I'm a lonely fool.

Anyways let's move on to the second angel.

This is my first time drawing someone else's character. Because someone that I've been following for a long time has started a twitter challenge called #DTIYS. Which is an acronym for "Draw This In Your Style".

Well, not much to talk about drawing copyrighted characters. Let's go back to my world.

Long long ago, I drew this. It's actually one out of a series of pieces I drew for also a twitter challenge called, if I recall correctly, #huevember where you have a wheel of colors and draw multitude of artworks with each color from the wheel is the predominant color of a piece. So here's this specific idea of a worldbuilding element that's been in me since I drew it here and I wanna ramble on and on about it right now. Ever since I played DarkSouls and was introduced to it's idea of a special category of what you'd normally describe as "just magic duh". And that is "Miracles", it's different from "Sorceries" which are just Harry Potter skaboosh. Miracles are when your character prays to one of the multitude of gods of DarkSouls world and the gods will do the skadoosh in an instantaneous answer to the prayer. I'm completely enthralled by this concept that the fictional world I wanna define my whole life as an artist is a one centered around myriad of gods (kinda like Shintoism) ranging from a tiny frog-like god that cools your glass of drink to a incomprehensible deity clad in thunders with warmongering followers.

And where this artwork comes in is the concept of a god that embraces her followers with thorny veins. But it's a bad god, so don't follow her. Because when a follower defeats someone who is of equal or higher power than them, the god will gift them with RPG-esque powers which are symbolized by the number of flowers that bloom. And it's rather addictive expedition. So that means that the red knight above is only a fresh rookie, unlike the one I just drew as the third angel of my own little art expedition.

I never planned it to be a trilogy. After drawing the second one, I was utterly dissatisfied with my failure to draw wings, so I dreamt of nothing but redemption.

Every time I pickup my drawing tablet, I always take a bite shockingly more than I could chew. The angle that creeps upwards from below was so tricky that I just couldn't find any way to draw her other arm. But also I reckon it's actually correct that you won't see it from this specific angle. And after losing a mathematically deductible amount of sanity from drawing each feather individually which then forced me to hatch-shade everything else for the sake of detail density consistency, I think I succeeded in redeeming my artist pride to myself. And it was such an effort and time demanding work that I feel like I'm a different, older person now.